Finding My Groove
I'm a creature of habit. The more routine I can make my diet and fitness efforts, the more likely I am to succeed. When my routine is interrupted, bad things can and often do happen. Like I stop exercising or eat totally off plan.
So now that I'm back on my program, I'm trying really hard to minimize disruptions to my routine at least initially during this crucial early period. I'm having lunch with my mother and brother on Friday but I picked the restaurant. I know from past experience that this restaurant serves two really yummy dishes that are points friendly and will leave me feeling happy and satisfied even if my brother snarfs down French onion soup followed by a gynormous plate of nachos.
Next week I'm supposed to have dinner with two girlfriends and I'm seriously thinking about cancelling. They want to go to Baker's Square, home of a jillion types of pie. I just don't feel strong enough to go there right now and while I'm sure I could ask them to change the restaurant and they would, happily, I just don't feel like dealing with that right now.
And then there's the Super Bowl. The Saint wants to go to a party at his brother's but there is no way in hell I would successfully make it through hours of access to the ton of food that will be available. Ain't happening right now. And if he goes without me there will be a million questions about why I'm not there. So of course he wants me to go and though he doesn't say it, I know he thinks I should just be able to tough it out or bring a vegetable tray and be fine with that. But it won't be fine. Or maybe it would but why have to deal with that struggle right now?
I'm grooving along pretty well right now and while I cannot avoid all social engagements until I've lost all this weight (for one thing I have a baby shower on the 28th I HAVE to attend) I don't think it's a big deal to temporarily avoid situations that I know will be tough for me. Right?
The other part of this is that, for whatever reason, I really don't want to be anywhere other than my own house right now. I'm happiest when I'm there and I'm sure part of it is that I have total control of my environment. Work is just something I have to endure until I can get back home. I love my house. I love The Saint. I love my cats. And I really don't want to be anywhere else other than at home with them.
I'm sure this all will pass but this is where I am right now.
So now that I'm back on my program, I'm trying really hard to minimize disruptions to my routine at least initially during this crucial early period. I'm having lunch with my mother and brother on Friday but I picked the restaurant. I know from past experience that this restaurant serves two really yummy dishes that are points friendly and will leave me feeling happy and satisfied even if my brother snarfs down French onion soup followed by a gynormous plate of nachos.
Next week I'm supposed to have dinner with two girlfriends and I'm seriously thinking about cancelling. They want to go to Baker's Square, home of a jillion types of pie. I just don't feel strong enough to go there right now and while I'm sure I could ask them to change the restaurant and they would, happily, I just don't feel like dealing with that right now.
And then there's the Super Bowl. The Saint wants to go to a party at his brother's but there is no way in hell I would successfully make it through hours of access to the ton of food that will be available. Ain't happening right now. And if he goes without me there will be a million questions about why I'm not there. So of course he wants me to go and though he doesn't say it, I know he thinks I should just be able to tough it out or bring a vegetable tray and be fine with that. But it won't be fine. Or maybe it would but why have to deal with that struggle right now?
I'm grooving along pretty well right now and while I cannot avoid all social engagements until I've lost all this weight (for one thing I have a baby shower on the 28th I HAVE to attend) I don't think it's a big deal to temporarily avoid situations that I know will be tough for me. Right?
The other part of this is that, for whatever reason, I really don't want to be anywhere other than my own house right now. I'm happiest when I'm there and I'm sure part of it is that I have total control of my environment. Work is just something I have to endure until I can get back home. I love my house. I love The Saint. I love my cats. And I really don't want to be anywhere else other than at home with them.
I'm sure this all will pass but this is where I am right now.
posted by Nichole @ 7:06 AM
1 Comments:
At 11:36 AM,
Mia Goddess said…
Hey Nicole, I don't want this to come across as "you can do it! just carry veggies in a plastic bag!" because I'm totally not going there with the comment I want to make. You do what's right for you, seriously, and if it makes other people feel uncomfortable, well, it's not really you're fault.
What I really wanted to say was that eventually, when you are ready, you should feel free to be more vocal about your needs. It took me a long time to learn this, but once I did, my life became much easier...for example, if my friends called and asked me to lunch at B/S, I learned that it's perfectly fine for me to answer with, "Love to, how about _______ instead?" And I'd pick some place more menu friendly. And you know what? Once I got over it, and started doing it, nobody ever got annoyed with me, or pointed out how difficult I was being, or made fun of me for needing to lose weight, or who knows what else was happening in my head that I thought would go so wrong.
Anyway, it took me a long time to learn that lesson, so I just wanted to share it with you, but not meant as pressure at all!
Post a Comment
<< Home