It's All About Me
My fitness and eating programs are all about me. My choices. My control. My desire. My determination. My commitment. My goals. I decide what I put in my mouth. I decide whether or not to hit the treadmill. Me. Not The Saint. Not my parents. Not my friends. Not my co-workers. Just little (or not so little as the case may be) me!
I expend so much energy worrying about and doing for others that often there's just nothing left when it comes to me. So I take the easy way out. I opt not to do that 30 minutes of walking. I hit a fast food place for lunch or dinner because I don't have a lot of time or am too tired to cook.
I got so derailed this summer and I'm so disappointed in myself. By now I had planned to have lost 50 pounds but I haven't. I feel like I'm jogging in place, treading water, kinda back on the wagon but not fully recommitted. The only things really keeping me marginally in line are: the July 30th 5K I'm signed up for, my desire not to end up like my dad and my fear of The Saint's disappointment.
I think I need to really narrow down my focus to one day at a time. What do I need to do to get through this day successfully? I'm always thinking too far ahead and not focusing on what needs to be done in the here and now.
At the All-Star break, the Chicago White Sox led the league in wins. Now let's see what they can do in the second half of the season. And the playoffs. BTW, the American League won the All-Star game and you know what that means. Should the ChiSox make it to the World Series, they would have home field advantage. See, there I go looking too far ahead again!
I expend so much energy worrying about and doing for others that often there's just nothing left when it comes to me. So I take the easy way out. I opt not to do that 30 minutes of walking. I hit a fast food place for lunch or dinner because I don't have a lot of time or am too tired to cook.
I got so derailed this summer and I'm so disappointed in myself. By now I had planned to have lost 50 pounds but I haven't. I feel like I'm jogging in place, treading water, kinda back on the wagon but not fully recommitted. The only things really keeping me marginally in line are: the July 30th 5K I'm signed up for, my desire not to end up like my dad and my fear of The Saint's disappointment.
I think I need to really narrow down my focus to one day at a time. What do I need to do to get through this day successfully? I'm always thinking too far ahead and not focusing on what needs to be done in the here and now.
At the All-Star break, the Chicago White Sox led the league in wins. Now let's see what they can do in the second half of the season. And the playoffs. BTW, the American League won the All-Star game and you know what that means. Should the ChiSox make it to the World Series, they would have home field advantage. See, there I go looking too far ahead again!
posted by Nichole @ 6:25 AM
1 Comments:
At 9:12 PM,
Mia Goddess said…
Yep, I hear you. It's so easy to get swept up in getting everything done, and taking care of everybody else. Good for you, on deciding to work on dealing with *today*. When I am in the mode where I'm always thinking, oh, in x weeks I'll weigh y pounds, well then, that's when I get that "I deal with it tomorrow, there's still time, I can do next week" kind of thinking - all subconsciously of course!
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